January 10th came as a blinding shock to me like most in the world when we heard the news of the loss of a musician, an artist, and just an extraordinarily good person. I seriously felt I wouldn’t know a day without him in the same world I live in. He just always seemed to be there for me, when I was down and one of his songs would come on and cheer me up instantly. When one of his music videos would come on and I would be transported into the absolutely fun, colorful, and creative world he envisioned. He continued his amazing career into movies, another love of mine, and gave us some memorable moments. I knew there were many reasons I loved him, his music, his art, his nature, and his love of books, something else I can understand. My odd nature and my wandering mind have always made me feel a bit of an outsider and he showed truly, what it meant to embrace the strangeness and show it was okay and even good to be different. Some may wonder or poo poo all the drama surrounding his death, but for me, in a world where we focus too much on terrible news I prefer to celebrate the amazing, the accomplished, the things that make us smile; Bowie always did that, still does that for me. I hope it is the same with everyone and maybe if you aren’t too familiar with, you will take time to get to know
I wanted to write something as soon as I could to pay a small tribute to an artist that I adore, but I had to wait a few days to collect my thoughts and to generally get over my melancholy. There have been some great articles, personal statements, emotional outpourings, and there will be some amazing tributes to come I hope; this is my small way to say thanks to someone I never knew personally, never met, and very unfortunate to have never seen in Bowie's natural environment, performing . There are so many people and events that form us and sometimes we don’t truly understand it until we are forced to recognize how much they meant to us; you don’t know what you’ve got till it’s gone, as the saying goes. The best laid plans fall apart sometimes, my plan was to finally get to see David Bowie when I first heard of his soon-to-be released release Blackstar. Excitement filled me like the days when I was very young; a life goal was going to be completed with this second chance to right a wrong in my life. A void in my being was going to be filled with this event, just one small wish that had been nagging at me for so long just below the surface, that I truly didn’t understand how important it was until it was taken from me just a week ago. The plan was to go by any means possible to accomplish this, important to me, task. I am just being selfish with my thoughts though; my true intent with this piece is to give an emotional thank you to David Bowie for a lifetime of beautiful art that I was blessed to experience for the better part of my life. I am thus inspired, I hope to emulate in some small way his example and maybe I will be putting out work until they day I pass into the firmament. For me he is immortal, I will always have his music and his example; he will join some others on my wall as constant inspiration. My heart is still heavy but I will play his music joyfully and be thankful.